User blog:Rizi213/beware: sappy thing ahead

so, um, hi to everyone still here :)

it's come to my attention that a lot of the users on here - who also happen to be dear friends of many - are leaving the wiki - and some even for good. and this started to make me think a bit.

as i'm typing this, i'm trying really hard not to cry. so many, and i mean so many, of my friends on here have left. i remember joining around what's nearly a year ago, thinking nothing will ever change, and yet here we are.

this wiki has gone through so much, and i, alongside many others, have with it as well. it's amazing and at the same time really sad to see what's come and gone.

and at times, i, too, find myself wanting to leave this place behind.

but i can't ever seem to find the right time to. so much responsibility seems to be on my shoulders, so many things that still seem to need to be done, and too many memories to leave behind. i don't know, i'm caught between staying and leaving.

there was one time that i left, or at least tried to, due to events going on in my life, but just a few weeks after that announcement, i was back to being a regular user. so it seems like i can't leave no matter how hard i try.

so much has changed here for me, to a point where i come on here and tears start falling down because i miss everything this place used to be. and i mean, yeah, we've grown, we've changed, just like so many other things have, but i guess it's the little kid in me that wants everything to stay the same. i'm so proud at where we are right now, but it also hurts to remember everything that was lost to get here.

maybe long after we all are gone, someone will rediscover this wiki and bring it back to life, just like so many users here had when it was first created. literally, 99% of those users have left now, but so many new ones have found us and continued to help that fire burn. maybe one day this wiki will go completely inactive, but when it does, i hope i'm not the only one smiling at the memories we all made here.

the day i leave this place for good may be nearing, or it may be months into the future, but i know that i will be thankful for the time i had here. there may be some on here that want me leaving, there may be some that want me to stay, so for whoever is thinking whatever:

let's cherish the moments we have together, because we never know how long they might last.

<3

signing off for what may or may not be the last time,