Thread:72.73.39.77/@comment-35776050-20180831013217/@comment-35776050-20180918012923

Okay, I'm on the computer again!

So here goes: Today was hard. Very hard. For me, and my parents. I'm not going to go into details, but I'll tell you that there was crying. A LOT of crying. And screaming. And not getting out of the car.

Basically, the guidance councillor is not working, and my parents are at their wit's end. It's just not fair! I know they want to help me, but it's so hard! So now my parents are trying to find me a therapist to talk to over break. But I don't want a therapist. that's for crazy people and people who wanna kill themselves. And they're also looking into medicine to help calm me down. Not actually medicine, more like a vitamin. That's what I like about my parents, they don't stuff me with meds for no reason.

It's just alot for me to process. Like alot. There's so many new things, and most of them I don't like. It's just so, so hard. I know everybody's trying to help me, but what if I want some space for a while? I don't even know what I want anymore. Right now I just want to crawl into bed and stay there for the next four years.

But my mom also suggested getting a notebook to write down all my thoughts and fears. Sorta like a diary/journal. She said it really helped her when her parents were divorcing. So I'm willing to try that. Maybe it'll help.

Anyway, thank you for listening. You dont even have to reply to it. It's just good to get that out. There's not rlly anyone I could talk to now