Thread:ElectricElephant/@comment-38029853-20190706020509

Hey Jade. I know you probably don't want to talk to me, and really hate me still, and our inactive, so probably won't see this, I wanted to try anyways.

I really miss you Jade. I miss our chats. You always made me smile and brightened up my day. And after thinking about it over and over again since the whole thing happened, I realized how stupid I was. If I was in your position, I probably would have done the same thing. And because of that, and because I have a good guess as to why you did it, I realize that I shouldn't have gotten so worked up over something small. Yeah, it hurt. But we always make mistakes that hurt others, and they just have to learn to pull through it, and leave it in the past. Ever since it happened, all I can think is that I'm so stupid, and such an idiot. I lost your trust and friendship over such a small thing that I should've put behind me, and I've learned my lesson the hard way. Every day, I think about you, and how you always made me smile. And I realise, just how much you were apart of my life, and the affect you had in it. We were both going through hard times, and instead of offering to help, I chose to be an idiot. Thinking about it now, I don't even know why I did it. I was so upset that my friends had once again gotten hurt by someone, and by everything that's going wrong in my life, to think about how it might affect you. And I regret that so much. I regret everything. Friendship is more important to me, then something that can easily be put behind.

Jade, I know you said you won't be able to forgive me, and that you don't really want to talk to me, but just know I'm always here. No matter what. Even if you don't realize it, you helped me learn a lot since then.

when and if you come back, so you think maybe we can start over? Our it all in the past? I know I was a stupid idiot, and you probably never want to talk to me again, but if you change your mind, I'll be waiting.

with so much love,

Crysteel 